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Thursday, June 21, 2012

Vyvanse is a Bitch

I have ideas. One is to tell you about the day I went downtown to the court house for my divorce. Another is to tell you I have been depressed all week.  And yet another is to tell you my Chihuahua’s nails need cut.

I can get it together.

I will get it together.

I have ADHD.  I was diagnosed three years ago, maybe four.  I was prescribed Vyvanse and I took it.  And it worked.

But last week I started having chest pains.  So I stopped taking it.

I am in the midst of devising a plan to manage my ADHD. There are ways and resources.  I’m checking them all out—twice.

In the meantime the withdrawal from the Vyvanse has been a bitch.  I'm, like, depressed.  And can't get anything done.  And the thing about ADHD is that it affects the self-esteem because I don't, like, finish anything and I start a sentence, insert the word like, and forget what I was saying.  At the end of the day I feel like shit.  Nothing done.

Stay tuned.  We’re going somewhere from here.






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8 comments:

  1. UnknownJune 21, 2012 at 2:41 PM

    Because of ups and downs and trying to find the "right" medication for me, I have days like this too. Totally sucks and sometimes I feel like I'm going to be like this forever! Lately I just celebrate in the small victories... like actually getting of my pj's for the day! I hope it doesn't last long for you.

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    1. kimberlyJune 21, 2012 at 6:01 PM

      Thanks, Lucy. The reminder to celebrate the small victories is a good one. I showered, dressed, put make-up on, took my daughter shopping, and took a nice drive through Columbus today. I'm putting this one in the "big victories" list. Thanks, again.

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  2. spazmomJune 21, 2012 at 9:21 PM

    You can make it through! And if you need something after, Adderall has worked wonders for me. I can't do any of the fancy new drugs. Withdrawals are a bitch, though.

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    1. kimberlyJune 22, 2012 at 5:38 PM

      Hi Spazmom. I love your Instagram feed, but not more than I love you. I miss you and think of you often--very, very often.

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  3. Kindred AdventuresJune 22, 2012 at 8:51 AM

    I do not have any experience with withdraw but I do know about you. You embrace everything life has thrown you with fierce strength and are a survivor. So while it's a bitc now and I must say made for a made me giggle post I know you'll get through this and for the better on the other side.

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  4. Kindred AdventuresJune 22, 2012 at 8:54 AM

    my stupid phone froze up on my comment... Didn't it know I was not done. Damn now I lost my train of thought.... Oh yeah.... besides isn't summer kind of an excuse not to always get things done on time and follow strict schedules?! Hang in there! xoxoxoxox -LV

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    1. kimberlyJune 22, 2012 at 5:37 PM

      Your comments really made my day. Insightful and kind. I hope you are having a great day, Laverne. <3

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  5. Pish PoshJune 22, 2012 at 6:20 PM

    Ahhhhh! Depression, anxiety, ADHD, ADD, they are such lying little beezies!! Don't listen to them.

    I am currently fighting not to win the olympics of "staying in bedness" so if you get down you remember I am there with you lady.

    Also your spirit? I just know you're going to get through this in a blaze of glory. I'm sorry about the limbo interim.

    You'll be you soon again. Celebrate you celebrate celebrate with cake. Celebrate every little thing, even taking a shower, or getting one thing done per day.

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