Five Minute Friday: Gift

I have been given gifts and I have given gifts. When I was little I enjoyed getting them. Now that I am grown, I prefer to give. It makes me feel good.  So do I give gifts for me or for the recipient?  And if there is a God, does he give so that he feels better or for the recipient?

I believe he does it for the greater good of life itself.  Which is love. Which is God.

The greatest gift I have ever been given is someone coming back for me when he knew I was in trouble.  I tried to call, but didn’t have the number.  He just knew.  And got there just in time.  And called 911.  And because of him, I lived.  Or because of his intuition. Intuition is a gift.  It is possibly God speaking to us.  And God spoke to him and now I live.  A gift.

Some days I forget to have gratitude for this most special gift I have been given and get upset about the little things, like the shower that needs fixed, or the kitchen that isn’t yet fully painted.  But really, if I wasn’t here, if he weren’t here, what would a shower or painted wall mean?  Are they significant?

Of course, it would be a wonderful gift to have those things done.  But hasn’t he done enough? 

I’m laughing.  I’m glad to be alive.

Note: This is my first stream-of-conscious writing (or free writing) post.  I have engaged in the activity before, but being a perfectionist, chose not to post any of the outcomes.  I was inspired by Kimberly, Rubber Chicken Madness, who linked her Five Minute Friday post from last week to Yeah Write #50.  She was able to access the emotion I feel when my girls are away for the weekend at their dad’s, which I haven’t been able to do successfully.  

So, in honor of shared experiences that sometimes are better articulated by our fellow-bloggers, I checked out the Five Minute Fridaylink-up at Gypsy Mama.  This week’s word to use as catalyst for free writing was “gift”.  There are many great outcomes found in the link-up authored by great bloggers, and I encourage you to check it out.